So, this graphophobe starts a blog…

I realize that I’m paranoid, but every so often people find my website by looking for my name. I suppose that’s not unusual, and after all I did make the (somewhat baffling) decision to post personal information on the internet; least private of public places.

There is a strange sort of jolt that comes with the realization that you’ve been searched, similar to how you felt the other day when you ran into that person who knows everything about you, and that’s great except you have NO IDEA WHO THEY ARE.* All else aside, it makes me curious as to who is searching me and why. Are they surprised (or relieved, or bored, or melancholy, or something else entirely) when they discover I mainly talk about fiber arts and all the nothing I’ve been doing with my time?

It doesn’t help that I’ve always been self conscious about my writing, more in terms of content than structure. On the other hand, I’m not asking anyone to read what I’m writing. Which is…what?

I’m still trying to answer the question of why I started this page. It comes in handy more often than I ever would have expected, mostly in relation to things I’ve created and documented. Just today I used it to recreate a pattern** by squinting at blurry photos and guessing.

On a humorous note, have I mentioned that we never finished coding the page? Four years, and I still don’t have my blue boxes. If you don’t know what I’m talking about, you don’t need to know what I’m talking about.

* I find myself in this situation with embarrassing frequency. If I’ve done it to you personally I’m sorry; I’m pretty sure it’s just one of those traits that comes with being an introvert who thinks too much. One part paranoia, two parts awkwardness, and a drop of genuine panic when faced with social accountability of any sort.

** Another thing I’ll never understand is why I can’t draft my patterns as I create them, rather than later on when I’ve forgotten them.

One Response to “So, this graphophobe starts a blog…”

  1. kayak woman Says:

    Guilty as charged (blue boxes). Also notice that the twitter widget is broken…

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